I've had enough

[david.porter9]

Many thanks for all the replies and words of encouragement. I've calmed down a bit now, and reading all the replies has helped put things in better perspective. It is however worrying that my experience seems to be far from unusual.

28thJuly2001

I was actually looking forward to my skills test, as I'm one of those strange types that enjoys exam situations. Also I did not threaten to quit 'just because (my) instructor says (my)knowledge is lacking'. I did not lose it because I couldn't answer the questions. This was an exercise in humiliation.

'Quit now and I can guarantee you will regret it for the rest of your life.' Maybe, but I don't think so. In the past I've been a stubborn b*****d and refused to give up trying to achieve particular goals, because I had to prove to myself that I could do whatever it was that I was trying to do. This was due to a lack of confidence in my early years. Now I'm older I no longer need to prove these things to myself. I simply do the things I want to do because I want to do them, not to prove anything. In the past I have persevered with things way beyond the point of reason, where any sensible person would have given up long before. And I did what I was trying to do. But when I looked back, I realised my mistake. So, because of my previous form, I try not to blindly follow the advice which you (and others outside of pprune) have given. However I understand the sentiment behind it, and that it is given with the best of intentions. Thanks.

I also agree with the rest of your comments. I am after all a big boy now. When I wrote the original post I was extremely angry and maybe I should have waited 24 hours before posting. But if I had waited until I had calmed down then I may not have posted at all.

Anyway, I think I will spend a couple of days thinking about something other than flying (mrs dave will be pleased!), and then come back to it and see how I feel.

Once again many thanks for all your replies.

Dave.

2nd post below

I have realised that I've become so caught up in the training that I've almost forgotten why I'm doing it. And I can't actually remember the last time I took a second to look at the view on my lessons. Maybe I should have asked my instructor to take control for a minute or two when recovering to the field, and just sat there and stared out the window.

I also recognise that, when considering the potential lifetime of flying ahead of me, the training period is relatively short in comparison (yeah I know it's a licence to learn, but you know what I mean). So it'd be stupid to jack it in now, right?

So, when I said about a couple of days NOT thinking about flying, I meant starting tomorrow...

Dave.