Very difficult for someone else to answer that question for you.
I've taken a gamble and gotten out of flying completely, many (not all, but most) of my colleagues are envious.
The hard part is knowing whether it is typical mid-life crisis stuff or a genuinely crappy way to make a living.
My subjective opinion is airline work is the dullest flying I did by far. Way worse than many land based jobs I've done.
I don't like to come on here and carp but in this case I have to say probably half the guys I know doing it would rather not be.
Taking a guess I think you'd find special mission flying far more rewarding.