Framer
That is exactly what I have been doing, bottling it up. I reckon it is either ego or embarrasment that my career is in trouble and there is a very real chance I might have to head overseas to continue. You give good advice
Mud
Nah I'm in Gods Country on the peninsular. The only thing any state govt has done for us was build the ocean outflow. Still plenty of turds but most of them are on land now
Anyway have truly appreciated the feedback and support. I'm still a little embarrassed letting it all hang out but you blokes have been great. Thanks again