Fatigue
Without being flip simply feel too tired to comment but must try !
Infact simply too tired to pay the telephone bill, cut the grass, mend the rotting wood work around the window, or carry out many of the very basic fuctions of life.
Fatigue makes the job and the accompanying life style a nightmare. Invest wisely is good advice and when you can, get out of the industry before it wrecks your long term health.
We all have a duty to ourselves, passengers, colleagues, and companies not to operate when fatigued and part of that duty sadly involves taking the inevitable flak from the management when we make sound safety based decisions.
However an awkward phone call from a management type is much better than risking a smoking hole anyday and the way im feeling right now is if any manager wishes to challenge my very occasional decisions not to work when fatigued then I will treat it as a good opportunity to quit and call it a day .