Saddest Aviator, you are not alone. Many mature airline pilots express their feelings to me, which are not dis-similar. But suicidal feelings must be dispensed with, by medical help probably.
As for comments by the likes of ETOPS240, they are beneath contempt.
The saddest thing is that many arrogant young pups in the right seat have no concept of your issue, mainly due to immaturity. And although they can fly an aircraft, they have little in the way of airmanship skills. Treat them like the teenagers that they are mentally, and they will dob you in. Truly unfair.
Keep going buddy, but not necessarily in the air. My solution was that of many others. Just treat it as a factory job, and exercise your own skills purely for your own satisfaction. And try to train the immature cadets despite their arrogance. They mostly grow up.
Last edited by RoyHudd; 21st Jun 2011 at 22:43.