Hi,I know the feeling(except for the suicidal thing).
If you like flying,go fly paragliders or gliders or something like that,this is how flying is supposed to be.No hassle,no BS,no yellow jackets,no security,no body searches,no management,you can even take your kids onto the flying site.
If you actually earn money with flying,just see it as an economical deal between you and the company,nothing else.They give you money,you turn up to fly,and start behaving like teflon,anything they(management,security or whoever) say,just let it slide off.
It has become apparent over the last 30 years that commercial aviation has,unfortunately, turned into a horrible,hassle filled career
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Flying almost seems to be the underdog in aviation,where as all the sidekicks of aviation seem to be the core business these days,like security,airport patrols etc.
Good luck
