Its called fear of the unknown....we all had to move away from our comfort zones one day. This maybe the time to do just that. There is a whole satisfying life after Air Zim. Been there done that! U cannot blame Air Zim for not sending your kids to school...u have yourself to blame. Wake up call maybe. I know ur good enough just believe in yourself. Look for help! u will be pleasantly surprised there are a lot of people ready to rescue you out but you must look for the help line. Good Luck