Ixixly seriously, you must have bad BO or something
I have been putting out for as much flying as I can post CPL, and in a year after getting my licence I had a few private gigs flying some people around, and also have now been at a relatively "quiet" DZ or 2 for only 11 months and am about to crack 500 hours, and I get paid extremely well for that flying by all accounts. At least 3 of my mates who got their CPL well after me are all employed fulltime and now have more hours than me. Only reason I have not pursued a full time gig yet is because I wanted to have the funds ready to go for ME/CIR, so I have continued working a desk job full time saving for it while I fly meat bombs on the weekend.
I think you need a break from thinking you are doing it so hard.. Sure, hours are not handed to you, but in my limited experience of the game so far, if you a passionate about making a career for yourself and are willing to stick at it, its really not as hard as you try and make it out to be.