Hello all!
thanks so much for the replies. At least now I know I am not crazy.
I'm a student pilot, 132h of flight, now reviewing for the CPL flight test. When I talked about it with my instructor, and some students at the school, they had a very macho reaction like 'what are you scared of? YOU HAVE TO practice, blabla'.
So when my instructor tells me to go to the zone and practice spins and engine failures, I'm not doing it. I do steep turns, diversion, precautionary landing on the airport chosen for my diversion and that's it.
Thanks!