bunnyhop, in your own words:
Im having sleepless nights about all this. ive been reading this and other threads and i am concerned to say the least.
So you think you're having sleepless nights just thinking about the job situation, without even having committed to paying for a training course yet?
Just imagine how much worse your sleep would be if:
a) you had just committed to starting an integrated course costing some £80,000 you hope, all in, with a huge, expensive loan to cover it all hanging round your neck... or
b) you were just emerging from an integrated course having spent over £100,000, the more realistic true cost of training with everything factored in, and now realising that there are no jobs just kicking around. Then it slowly dawns on you that you might well need to invest a further £30,000 on a type rating to give yourself a better chance, and even then there are very few jobs available? And all along, the repayments on that huge loan are crippling you every month...
If the mere thought of starting training is causing you sleepless nights, then either stick with it and learn to enjoy it, or give up thoughts of starting integrated training for the moment. Either way, it is a bloody sight cheaper than having already spent / committed the money, which would undoubtedly give you much, MUCH worse sleep at night!