Just to play devils advocate here!
I'm sure when employers recruit low hours Pilots one of the concerns they try to satisfy themselves of is the fact that the new recruit is not going to run off at to fly a big shiny jet if the opportunity presents itself. (during bond - it has happened)
What would your employer think of your attitude at the moment after investing trust and faith in you! If you went to work tomorrow and you employer had read your comments what confidence would they have! Did you tell them at the interview you would prefer a job flying a 737 or A320 and you were just applying for the job because you could not get the big jet job? I think not!
Count your lucky cards you have this job and learn all you can from the lessons that this brings you!
As already said give yourself a good swift kick up the ass. Mate if you had your Class 1 revoked tomorrow with the possibility of not being able to fly again you would be grateful just to be able to do what you’re doing now.
Safe flying