Jiffajaffa, go immediately and talk to BALPA or IALPA, if you stay in aviation your post and the sentiment it contained will haunt you. You must educate yourself. You owe it to yourself after the money I assume you have spent. Your lack of worldly knowledge is being taken advantage of and thats OK, if you learn from the experience. Your colleagues have expressed some robust views on your post, you may dismiss them all as malcontents if you wish but consider the level of experience they have brought to this discussion. You might think me patronizing, but we have all been where you are now and I wish only to hasten your awakening to the rest of your life.