jaba you have every right to say such things & most agree as we can see. Ok here's a guy who is 19 & posted twice here. Take a look at the scenario a bit here. Why on earth would you want to 'hang' yourself all over again (first hanging was the day he started this death spiral) here in a public forum where pilots, employers & god knows who else is ready to judge, sentence & hang someone for almost anything?
Somebody in command of anything never lone an A/C ought not to be anywhere near machinery when on or have been in the past mind altering drugs but they are sadly.
So 'cetnik' as you can see/read I believe it best at yr age to go away from this industry & prove to yourself first that yr worthy to hold a job in our field of expertese. Then when you know yourself that your back to normal(whatever that is anyway!) maybe just maybe you could seek a pvt license & take it from there. Yr subject matter (if it is in fact real) is a very touchy subject & airing it here wasn't a smart move. You are obvioulsy not alone many youngsters would be heading down a path of destruction but do you really think that 2 months proves much?. NO. come back here much latter, now isn't the time
CW