Kurimaw,
Read this Carefully, Its a very friendly Advised.
Stay away from PPrune and GO pursue your Dreams. It is not the Issues around you that will stop you from being Successful, but YOURSELF.
Nobody has the answers for All your Questions, believed me, not even your DAD can measure your abilities. Test and gauge yourself if you can do the task and then GO on, which ever way you want.
PPrune can never give you the most satisfying answer you need, neither will it show the way to your destiny. Its your choice, and I hope you will understand.
Goodluck!
C1052