i feel that if i instruct i will gain a good understanding of a lot of the theory side of flying, topics such as aerodynamics, aircraft systems and IFR theory. i fear that if i went north (or anywhere else) and flew charter (having noone looking over my shoulder) i would become slack and maybe develop bad traits, while also maybe falling behind with a lot of the theory
So what you are saying is
flying around single pilot is detrimental to your career ??
Sit down, take a Bex, and have a long hard think!
Who has been filling your head with this stuff....