I feel for you STR8. The stuff about it being more dangerous to drive, or ride, to the aerodrome is all very true but, perhaps this thought will help you most:-
By far the largest cause of helicopter fatalities is pilot error. The more respect you have for your life and thus for your attention to flying well and safely the less chance you have of an "accident". After 35 years at it I'm still wary of making mistakes and poor decisions. I've only had two near things beyond my control; an engine failure which resulted in a good enough landing to kill or injure none of the seven souls on board and a hi-jacking which is a suficiently bizarre event not to register on anyone's "oh ****-ometer".
Please try again.......you know there's nothing on earth to compare with it and you, and only you, can control the risks.