Sorry to read that you feel you have "lost your bottle".Try looking at it from a different angle; don't you think that simply driving to the airfield might be more risky than flying your helicopter?
I do. As a result of attending over 1800 road accidents in the last 6 years, I am now finding the drive to work more and more stressful! Dual carriageways are fine but driving on normal roads facing unknown individuals ( of unknown ability, age, mental stability, health, intoxication, etc) at a closing speeds of 100-120 mph, 2 feet away from me, is beginning to make me a little nervous!
It's a relief to get in the helicopter! (but unlike the beater, only at 47k!)