185lbs, I used to feel the same way, but time changed my attitude. I expect it will change your attitude too. And where do you think your terms and conditions would be without BALPA? Every pilot in this airline has a debt of gratitude to BALPA and its members. Where do you expect your terms and conditions to go if everyone takes the same attitude as you? If you work during a strike, you will be rewarded with ever-degrading terms of employment. Or you could leave. Or you could see what a future on McDonalds pay offers for you. But if you leave, will you not face similar choices to the one you're looking at now? Remember, the airlines shackle us with the seniority system, so we can't benefit from the normal economic forces of the labour market, like people in other professions. Most of us are stuck here!