I'm glad someone else is feeling the same as me - I'm now 40 sectors into my flying career and sometimes get a little worried - especially when witnessing the expertise of the man on my left who shows it to be so easy.
Among my Key performance indicators now, is the effort
NOT TO MAKE THAT MISTAKE AGAIN!!
HOWEVR - Tower are starting to lose their sense of humour over my PA anouncements for them to take their seats for Takeoff.