5pfarms,
the reason why one can't decide for himself nowadays is because we always look at our past. Everytime "utang na loob na lang", aren't there any more people in this world willing to help, or are you too afraid that you can't possibly make it by your own. I thanked them already, for the great help and history i will past to my children, the Great names whom have placed me on this, And that is enough. If they ban my name who cares? they banned plenty of names already and some of them are there right now working, they just come and go. Bless you, for you are rare person, a very contented one. I wish I was just like you.