Well done, BL.
Whining won't change things, folks. Best you dive in and get the job done and get that CPL. You're not the first who's done it in this manner and you won't be the last but it's still a pretty big achievement. As mentioned earlier, it's the volume of information, rather than the difficulty that catches people. Look around you at some of the folks currently holding a CPL. If they can do it, so can you....
Just keep banging your head against that wall. Eventually it'll crumble.
Banging your head on a wall is also good practice for finding a job....