Do not despair,
went to a talk by a very senior easy pilot tonight who said that every airline would be gagging for pilots in the next 12 months, they can't train em fast enough (and no he wasn't talking for easy or towing the company line). So just hang in there. you will get there. just sent another 100cv's today (that totals to about 700 in total so far).
If you want it bad enough you'll get the chance to blow it.