Busy B
It sounds to me that you are the one who is either with a low paying airline or pissed away all the money you made from working for a real airline. Whatever the case it is time for you to go. You had your fun now it is time to make way for a new generation of pilots. As the saying goes the torch has been passed to a new generation.
A member of the British elite airlines is not good enough for you? What is your story that you feel that you must keep flying?