Hmm.. well i don't have the statistics that you need but i'd just like to express some disagreement with the main thrust of EGCC4284's post.
Being a pilot is all about making sensible decisions given the information that you have available to you and that's what you're doing very well now. I think an airline would overlook someone who jumped into something without any consideration of the consequences. They don't necessarily hire on "how much you want to be a pilot", though determination is a preferred characteristic.