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You felt that you couldn't 'commit' yourself to 12 years in the RAF, so you didn't join. On that basis you were quite right to do so, and both you and the RAF have been saved some heartache downstream. Flying in the RAF is much more than a hard and demanding job. Many people have already discussed the level of 'commitment' required to join and succeed in todays military. It is worth bearing in mind that anyone joining the RAF to fly can be expected, if necessary, to take actions such as turning back into a 6G fight, while outnumbered, press on through to try to reach the target etc, with the prospect of having to make THE ULTIMATE COMMITMENT while doing so! And you didn't like the idea of 12 years!!
Nuff said!