Heh heh heh. It's harder to walk away from than you think. I tried convincing myself of that 12 years ago, and was rather successful at kidding myself along for a long time. Then one day, completely out of the blue, something happened that rekindled that dormant flame of aviating desire and it damn near burnt my house down it took hold so quickly. Surprised the hell out of me.
Started all over again, though this time on the civvy side of the fence, and though I've been waiting 2 years for a multi-crew position and never been poorer, I have no regrets about any of it and would do it all again tomorrow. You'll have to prise my career ambitions out of my cold, dead hands.