Arrandreamer, that's an excellent post. It sums up what many, many wannabes go through - and most get nowhere near a scholarship! As you have realised, sometimes dreams are unachievable through no fault of your own, and you have to move on in another direction. I'm sure medicine will give you great satisfaction, and it's very true that you may eventually earn enough to run (or have a share in) your own aircraft - many professional pilots do the same just so that they can get a 'fix' of real flying! It's a lot more fun than driving a big jet, believe me!
Scroggs