Did you ever asked why airlines are going to exploit pilots and why salaries are going lower and lower ?
You actually want to buy your first job. That's not training anymore, that's SLAVERY. Facts.
I'm sorry to say that but people like you are going to ruine the whole profession, and i'm not kidding.
One day (not so far away i fear) you'll be asked to pay for the privilege to put your ass on the left seat too.
Please think twice, you're not alone