Hi ozflyboy,
That's very disappointing for you. It made me sad to think that your dream was dashed but try to think of it as a stepping stone to something better. I believe things happen for a reason and perhaps you are right where you are meant to be for now.
You never know what will happen in a couple of years. This whole aviation game is a rollercoaster. You can focus on your full time job now and at least your up there doing what you love to do.
Good luck for the future.
Iguanahead