Sqwark2004,
You are between a rock and a hard place. Many of us have been there. The only advice I would like to give is to read the accident reports and coroners reports that have been written in the last 30 years.
No where will you find a statement that the pilot stuck his neck out to help his employer. You will find mentioned many rules and regulations that should have been complied with, but have never been enforced by the regulator. The regulator has after all been to many wine and cheese evenings paid for by the employer, but never to any paid for by a young and vulnerable aeroplane driver. Some of us have spent many years surviving in this environment, and know where you are coming from.
Advice? very difficult to give, if you feel in your bones it is not on, give it away and look for a position that will give you job satisfaction without continual hassle, difficult at the start of a career, but better that than to be one the many who have featured in accident reports.
Prospector