ive made up my mind...(finally)
First, i would like to thank all of you for your help; you're all very kind. And yes, after a reading your wise posts and a lot of thought, i have decided that the civilian route is best for me. I think it would be unfair on the RAF and England itself if i was not 100% behind joining (and i would hate myself if i didn't enjoy it).
Anyway, the civilain way sounds a lot more fun. If there are anymore tips to help me on my way and to prepare for the future, they will be most welcome. Thanks again.
Ez
PS, the above may sound slightly arrogant and that i think that joining the RAF and/or becoming a test pilot is easy. I do not wish to offend anyone. I do understand that these ambitions are dreams and are very very difficult to achieve.