Thank you for your kind and wise words. I wholeheartedly agree with you. I have come back on here to continue to search for answers. I did not see your reply from the initial post. but its what I needed to hear. I have learnt alot from the accident. Its been 3 years but the culpability of the accident is yet to be determined. I have come to terms with it and even if I was not technically culpable I do feel like I was in terms of the circumstantial pressure I experienced on the day. I learnt alot from the experience and I do feel like I'm a better pilot for it. I am still trying to tap into the airlines but in the meantime I did find gainful employment despite some difficulty. I do hope I can find a company with the ethos that you portrait. Because I agree, I don't think I would want to work for someone who cant see me as human.