Dear nothappyjan,
Have to say I agree with everything thats been said, so I wont repeat it.
Just to let you know, when I started flying I only intended to do it for 6 months then return to nursing. After my first flight I cried all the way home! I hated it. Couldnt believe id given up a good career for that. I hated every flight for about 6 months, then everything seemed to click. I flew for 10 years, and although I dont fly any more its the best job I have ever done. So far.
What im trying to say is, sometimes we feel we hate it, because its so different from anything else, we think we will never get the hang of it. It takes time. Once you know what you are doing you will either love it or hate it. If you can just give it a little time. What have you got to loose. Good luck Pinni.