I've never worn my GSM/NI; I certainly remember being presented with it by AVM Austin who knew enough to kindly say I'd definitely earned it, but I don't think I ever went on a parade after that and I left the RAF a couple of years afterwards. There were quite a few times in NI when I really did think I might not be coming home including my first day (and I'll say no more), but luckily, I did. I've attended quite a few formal remembrance occasions since but as far as I'm concerned, those occasions are to honour those who weren't so lucky - so my "gong" stays at home.