For almost all working pilots, it's a job, just a job. Not a bad job, to be sure, but it's a job. Look at how many senior airline crew bid for minimum flying! I know a couple of people who've got the pilot obsession, but most people end up doing it for the money (which is not bad, but not fabulous, these days) and complaining about the roster and hours.
The step from CPL/IFR/ME to paying work is not easy. It will take time, involve moving around, and long periods of low (or little) pay. Yes, plenty of people get lucky and work their way up to an airline command, but there are no guarantees
I'd suggest you keep at the work that's paying, and make aviation a hobby. Buy (or better still make) a nice little aircraft, and fly when and where you want.