Captain Bloggs, you'll note in my previous posts I was asking questions to understand what is being said by ATC. You obviously have someone sitting beside you to help clear up any confusion, sit in the cockpit by yourself in IMC and manage the workload of this procedure and see how you go. Personal problem? No, Dick is confused by whether he has a clearance to clip, the last thing you need when SP-IFRing in IMC is to be chipped by ATC for busting CTA.
I think you need to calm down a little, look at the broader implications of what is being discussed.