Thanks for the constructive answers and advice.
For the rest, I understand that deep climate of pessimism and negativity. As a future pilot, given this situation, I'd also discourage any potential competition as there is no room for any more. So don't worry, its normal, but blowing steam off in forums like this and social media is not going to make things better. I came here for a couple of answers, nowIŽll stay away from it, as this platform used in the wrong way I see becomes highly toxic, and having my official exams in a month I need the focus and the motivation, none of which I'll found here obviously.