I would suggest that you stop everything that you're doing right now as it seems to me that you're just burning money.
Sit and think about what you want to do in life, make a list of your skills, qualifications and what you like to do and match that up to jobs that are out there.
Definitely stop flying as if you don't enjoy it, you will not be learning to your full potential. In a normal career this doesn't matter but as a pilot your life and others can be put in danger.
Good luck with your new path.