ps...dont worry Sunny...I'm a natural coward as well. Thats why I'm still here.
We all have had exciting "lessons" in the aviation business, to dwell on and digest..ie.ffs dont do that again !
The two mantras I tell the younger...1... Know thy aeroplane, intimately. AND...
2 . Know the weather: watch it, study it learn it, to avoid getting done over by it.
Aah... the loveliness of clouds. But only from the right perspective !