A brave question on a forum like this. I disagree with some of your statements, there's no real force bonding anymore and most people live off base and lead a very normal 'faux civilian' life. However, it's not a job its a vocation; if you're not 100% committed you'll almost certainly fail training. Even if you get to the frontline, you will be working with people who will walk through walls to get the job done, if that's not you then save yourself the time, and effort and do something that better suits you.