I think the OP deserves credit for raising the question but, as has been said, merely raising it actually also provides the answer.
As someone who didn't make it through OASC many moons ago (but did get a Commission in another service later and learnt to fly privately later) but has subsequently had an enjoyable and successful career I can say this:
Being a FJ pilot in the RAF was the only thing I ever wanted to do, and it still is!
If you don't feel like that about it, walk away now.