To quote Richard Briers reply on Parkinson to anyone who "really, really, really wants to be an actor."
"Don't, Don't do it.
If you really can't do anything else then you have to go for it with total commitment!"
The happiest pilots are those who are totally dedicated and have had to work hard to get there.
The most dissatisfied are those who got a fast-track (integrated) course and never had to struggle, scrounge, beg or steal.