Jagbag,
A life in the military entitles you to nothing except your pension. It was your choice of career live with it, the world and more specifically your country doesnt owe you a favour. You were well paid for the risk and lived a life of rielly. As for the tabloidesque "seen friends die"statement, that is not a monopoly of the military. I have probably taken more ground fire and seen more people buy the farm in my civil avaition career than i did as a foot grunt in the military.It didnt make me more employable as an airline pilot tho. That took more hard work and another apprenticeship. Horses for courses.
Other wise you seem like a well balanced chap.