There is a concept, externalizers vs internalizers. This is predominantly applied in PTSD. A few years ago my wife tried to end our relationship. I did as she asked, like always.Went as she requested. Her father spoke to me....said to go home, she had told him "daddy he will sit at my grave and kill himself the night I'm buried." A week later I did as she predicted, he was fast enough that I merely lost an eyebrow. Haven't worked since - am not 100% locked on to make life & death decisions over anyone else. My point is merely we all can be broken somehow, it's just a matter of degrees. Having 1st hand experience hope none of you EVER know the feeling. Sincerely,