because to go integrated (to me) means that you want a job first, and to be a pilot second.
That's a big shout. I really don't think there is any shame in wanting to have the best possible chance of a job at the end of the course. I think thats just planning for success.
As for the OP, as others have said, there is no magic solution to your problem. Get a job and save up, or find a way to get a loan. Those are your choices!