Danny . . . . condolences. Bereavement can be bitter/sweet. Not good to go on at a time like this, but just a passing mention , (I hope not an 'off' note') . of the Clint Eastwood character in 'Grand Turino', a Korean War vet, Walt Kowalski, who came to a realisation of this duality.
You of course must know that over time there are a bunch on here who have come to feel at times a sense of 'closer than brothers', for which you have been an incredible catalyst.