I left 31 years ago, never went back and never looked back, move on with your life times have changed but enjoy the memories.
"thing" summed it up very well;
If you have no right or need to be somewhere then you don't go there, no matter who you were or are. It does go a bit pear shaped occassionally but it's better to be held up for the wrong reasons than to be let in for the wrong reasons.