the fact is that if i go back to europe, i will be one of the thousands low hours unemployed...and i don't want to be. Unfortunately i had no money enough to study at OAA or FTE, I can't pay type ratings or line trainings, i spent all my money to get my licences, i want to be productive.
Here's the bad news, wherever you go, you will be "one of the thousands of low hours unemployed". But, if you don't have the right to work there, then you are one of the thousands who will remain unemployed.
Here's the good news. You spent all your money, but DIDN'T GET A LOAN that you have to pay back.
You want to be productive?
Get a job in a warehouse or factory doing menial labour and save up your money to fly on the weekends. And if possible get a degree in engineering or accounting or medicine and move to that as a profession, and keep flying on the weekends.
Be happy that you find this out now, not after you've taken a loan for advanced ratings.