That was a very touching passage of text mate & I'm glad you shared your journey with like-minded strangers. Must admit life dealt you some serious hardships that sadly coincided with significant points in your flight training timeline. I seriously hope you get something somewhere as you seem like you hail from a humble/modest background. Good luck on whatever path you chose to meander down but to echo the others DON'T GIVE UP, you've come this far, surely there must be some way of trying to get that foot in the door. I used to think like that was of a mindset that
'the past left a scar and the future is looking fatal'. Perseverance, patience & drive kept me grafting away & thankfully I'm due to get my comeuppance accordingly. Hopefully lady luck decides to give you the time of day mate
