lack of confidence makes sense.
you've done your ppl, you know the area around you well but just pottering around it is boring. going further afield is interesting but you don't quite feel comfortable doing it, what if the weather deteriorates, or you get lost or the donk stops.
perfectly normal.
Having spent the money, why not find someone to fly with, then you have a companion who you can go exploring with and enjoy the flying. sure there are plenty of people who would be delighted to share their flying